I'm really bored. i have nothing new to report actually. Well, other than I got really madd at the boys last night. They keep pointing their fingers at the girls when there's a new mess, but the girls are at their dad's right now, and wouldn't you know it.. there was gobs more new messes.

Other than that, i'm bored. Been going around to my LJ RSS feeds and posting jokes that nobody is ever going to understand. not sure what the point to that is.. I'm either gonna piss someone off, or else gain a reputation of being really dumb. *shrugs* It's entertainment, I guess.

Besides that though, I'm terribly bored. I've been trying to figure out the hidden message in Brian's latest post. It sure -looks- like a compliment. *ponders*

This morning I had chicken noodle soup for breakfast.

*sighs*

I needa go do something or something.

I just watched the funniest movie on Comedy Central called, The Sweetest Thing. It has Christina Applegate, and uhm (drawing a blank) that one girl.

Anyhow, it had some parts where they tried to push the comedic effect too much, and it got real dumb, but if you look past that.. oh-my-god.. that was hysterical! I havn't laughed that hard in a long time!

Friday, I mailed Ken his birth certificate. He needed it so that he could get a new social security card, so that he could get paid. Now, besides my own selfish reasons for wanting the fuck-wit to get paid- Being that i havn't gotten any child support in a year and a half. There's also the matter of if he doens't start paying, he is going to jail. Suposedly a warrent was issued for his arest on Oct. 1st when he didn't pay 2000 dollars in back support, and if they pick him up, and he's still not paying anything? Well, i'm afraid they have no reason to let him go after that.

My mom and the lady that picks up our town's mail and takes to the next bigger town to be processed were telling me at the post office that I shouldn't bother with him.. let him get a duplicate of his birth cert... I told themt hat I was trying to keep him out of jail and there was this big "WHY?" in unison. I didn't tell them that I also have writen a letter to the judge, asking for the judgement they issued aobut the back support to be changed, so that the payments were something that he could actually pay.

I don't like him. Not at all. I -really- don't like him. He's an abusive nasty waste of human flesh. I have to admit, that there is a part of me that thinks sending his ass off to jail for a while just to get rid of him might be alright. It would keep him out of my life, and out of the kids' lives.

But, it's not alright. He got himself into this spot.. he was punishing me for getting custody of the kids when he quit paying the support.. this is his own doing, and now i'm trying to help him out of it.. I understand the attitudes of my mom and that woman. The thing is.. I can help. It doesn't take much of my time to write a dumb letter, or to send a birth certificate, thats rightfully his anyhow. If from here.. he continues to hang himself? then there's nothing that I can do aobut that, but i'm not going to be feeling guilty over this, when all i had to do was mail a letter and a birth certificate.

How can I, in good concience, explain to the kids that their dad is in jail, and it was all his won doing, when I could have done something that might have stopped it? That may sound twisted to some people, but it's how I feel. What he does from here is on him. Tomorrow, I have to get the letter notarised, and I will be sending it. *shrugs*

I dated a guy that was in prison once.. as much as a person can date a man that is in prison anyhow. That relationship ended badly, and right before I met Brian, but the thing that that relationship did for me was blurr the lines between right and wrong. After finding out how it was like in there? I wouldn't wish that on anyone, and I am one that thinks major social reform has to happen to keep people out of there.. So, how hypocritical would I be, if I then said.. "eh, let the ass go to jail"? It's not a tool for me to use just to get rid of a mistake that I made in marrying an ass.

So, onto brighter subjects... Brian called today and I found out that Angie and her fmaily are back in town. Angie is a 16 year old girl that has had a -really- rough life. Her mother and step dad are both on crack. I've always felt bad for her, but when she left a few months ago to go live with her dad, I was relieved. For a couple of reasons.. I was hoping she'd have a better life there, and for two.. She and my oldest boy were dating, and this girl.. well, let's just say that she's been aorund the block.. 3 or 4 times. When I was that age, i'm sure people said that about me as well, but when I was that age, the diseases there were only required a week's worth of anti-biotics to cure. I'm afraid for my boy.

Brian and his annunciation (or lack therof) have struck again! As we hung up, he said.. "I'll hurry home, and bang ya. Is there anything that you want banged?"

LMAO